I know how you feel. It seemed different some how hearing other people juggaling bean bags and standing on wobble boards, doing it myself was something else. I felt like such an idiot and there was a voice in my head that said the whole thing wouldnt work and to just give up. I didnt though and have now finished the course as of this month. The difference between then and now is actually huge. My confidence has improved ALOT, and at the age of 30 have somehow turned into `kevin the teenager`. Hopefully thatll pass as slamming doors and throwing strops is unatractive at my age. I was always the quiete shy one that never did anything, literally. Now im finding my place in the world. Stick with it, it`ll be one of the best things you`ll do.